Yesterday, I was having one of the most relaxing days since I was back in Borneo three months ago and it was all well until I opened my work email and there it was, an email from my new supervisor. I started working with her this year and I was totally excited about what we were going to do together but she has been too busy to even answer a few of my emails and my questions, hindering me from proceeding with the projects. When I got back from America, I emailed her to ask her for progress and she replied with an email about me not letting her know that I was away.
I admit that I didn't tell her I was away because I was in a rush, but she follows me on Twitter and would've known, and secondly I couldn't have done anything without her replies to my emails. She still haven't answered my emails replying with her classic lines of being busy and will get back to me asap.
Yesterday, her email was to a few of my colleagues with me CC'ed and she pretty much explained her increased workload and my extended disappearance has caused her inconvenience. It was uncalled for and it actually made me feel crap. I was going to reply explaining my circumstances, but in the end, I took the bullet and just apologised for my disappearance and am happy for someone else to take over the project if deemed needed. Sucks balls. %^&*
It's something so petty but I hate being wrong or wrongly accused. I try to uphold my own values and I don't think I have failed and it sucks to be accused like that. I actually didn't sleep well all night just thinking about it - its so stupid yet I couldn't control it! Hmm.. And I had to pretend I was happy all day. I hate being such a perfectionist sometimes.
Rant over - hope I can move on after letting this out of my system.
I am probably quitting the job after this month.
On another note, comments have been far and few so I'm just wondering if you guys are still reading and not commenting or is there a reason for the lack of comments? Like, if everyone hates me now. Eeks!
Also, if you want me to like link you on the blogroll list, let me know. I don't bite, promise.