My housemates (a couple) are having a big argument. It's hard to be in between them because I do love them both and I really don't want them to break up. Over the past few months and weeks, I have grown really close and comfortable with Lynne - we talk about boys, we bitch about work and because I work from home most of the time these days, and so does she, we discuss about a lot of nothing and everything. On the other hand, I've lived with Roger for 2 years and he's been like the annoying big brother I never had, especially recently, we've been having lots and lots of deep and meaningful conversations. I used to think that he'd be uncomfortable with my sexuality, but he still treats me like a little brother, and he's actually taken interest in my personal life as much as me-his.
We had a long chat tonight about his relationship with Lynne and although he's only cried once in his entire life, tonight, he shed a tear. He's your very tough, masculine, alpha male who cares about nothing and worries about nothing - but recently, he wants to make a change to be more human.
So, after about 2 hours talking about him and Lynne, he told me he knows all about me and Troy and Lachlan because Lynne told him what I told her. He reassured me that I'm still his bratty little brother and he wants to be in my life too. I had an aww moment, so I told him all about Troy and Lachlan and showed him pictures of both of them.
It's so strange discussing your personal life with your straight housemate who is all manly and usually unemotional. Having said that, I am beyond grateful I have housemates that I can be comfortable around and a housemate that treats me like his little brother. It's sooo hard having to say good-bye to these people when I leave next month.
Looking at them, in some sense, I am glad I am not in a relationship, but in so many ways, its arguments like these that make a relationship stronger - at least they now know each other's weaknesses and can, hopefully, work together constructively to be better people for each other.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
It's one of those days when I just want to know nothing, feel nothing, be nothing, do nothing and crawl up in bed and just sleep. It's one of those days when things have been flying smoothly, and all the stars seemed to line up exactly the way you want it to be when all of a sudden you hit a bump, skidded a little and starts to go downhill - and at the same time, the stars start to misalign slightly.
Having said that, moments like these allow me to appreciate the people around me even more and the simple things that make life so precious and beautiful.
Recently I met a boy, let's call him Lachlan. I have to admit that when I first met him, I didn't find his exterior extremely attractive. He is attractive though, that I can say - he has all the features you want in a boy (strong facial bone structure, toned body, etc). Having said that, whatever happens from here, I'm only going to appreciate every moment considering I am making the move in a month time.
On another note, this time next week, Troy will be up here and spending a few nights with me. He's currently in Tasmania visiting his dad and he decided to do a detour and fly up to see me before he make his 6 hours trip back to Perth.
And someone just confessed his feelings for me - although I used to quite like this person, its all faded and regardless of how many times you've done it, rejecting someone is always hard.
Be kind to one another and all my love to you.